Yoink!, Swipe!, Mine! Dibbs! oh whatever, you know what I mean.

These days I feel like I have nothing to blog about except the pending wedding, which Im sure you're all bored of hearing about so far. I haven't revealed any details to you other than that I am marrying my best friend and soul mate. Hey can you fault a girl for being excited?? I promise that I won't have too much to say about the wedding this time through...

One of my really awesome friends and Matron of Honor, LaceyBean, is a superb awesome blogger, even though she doesn't think so some days. She always has these unique awesome insights and takes on life and things in life, and more often than not, when I am looking for a blog idea, I find myself looking at her blog for inspiration/ideas to steal/blatantly copy. Yesterday she posted "Imperfectly me! Part2". SPOILER (in case you wanted to read the blog, skip to the next paragraph)she wrote about all the little quirky/weird/everyday habits etc that make her who she is.

So I've decided that since I am at a complete loss, and have been analyzing myself to death lately all revolving around my own failures in life, that I may as well steal/borrow/copy this idea as well. (Its not plagiarizing if I give her all the credit is it?, God I hope not.)

So here are some random things/overshares about me, myself and I....

1. I am turning 30 on April 17th (shudder) and I feel like I'm turning 70. I have more grey hair than my mother, I have arthritis, and I more or less go to bed every night around 9:30. At least I don't watch Jepordy and Wheel of Fortune and PBS all the time.

2. I hate shaving my legs, I always seem to nick myself in that one spot that never ceases to bleed. I've bought more contraptions & products to remove the hair from my legs painlessly and I hate them more than shaving due to either smell, burning sensation, or overall ineffectiveness of the product. I am currently rather furry and have no ambition to change that in the near future unless I have to. Pat says he doesnt care about my level of "fur", but still I can't see how he couldn't at least mind it to some degree.

3. I love to have a hobby. Be it crocheting, cooking, camping, scouting, crafting, baking, reading, blogging, photography, photo editing or something else all together. I have the attention span of a 3 yr old though. So my "hobby" is always short lived. and in that short time I always seem to spend a lot of money on that hobby and say Im going to stick with it, until the next best thing comes along, and then I am comparable to the dogs in "up" when someone says squirrell. huh, what, where?!?!?!.....dammmit, did it again. what where we talking about again?

4. I love to help people and give them advise and encourage them, but am aweful being on the other side of the fence and often get extremely defensive and snippy and whatnot. I hate it when people stick their noses where it dont belong, but I have no problem doing that to other people. Apparently Im a hypocrit. Great, I am what i despise. sigh..... Although I am learning (albeit slowly) to learn how to ask for and furthermore accept help when its offered.


5. I am petrified scared, like full on anxiety attack petrified scared, of going back to a full time job at some point in my life. I have no idea if I will be able to do it considering how long I have been out of the workforce. I know I am capable of doing the "task" but as for the mental capacity to deal with other people etc, I really have no idea if I can do it.  And not knowing, that creates all sorts of anxiety.



5a. I am a homebody with aspirations of becoming a non-homebody. I really enjoy making plans with friends, but when push comes to shove, I often find myself regretting making plans to go out as I'm walking out the door because I'd much rather be curled up on my sofa with my fuzzy blanket, a kitty or two, my remote and phone instead.


6. Im overweight and I know it. I weigh too many lbs, haha, not telling you the number or even number range cause then I'll just feel worse about myself. I have a gym membership which I never use and wish I had more motivation to use to loose weight. (add this to list of minute-hobbies) I've bought DVD's, games for the wii and xbox to try and make loosing weight fun. But seriously, how can this crap be fun. I loathe sweating to boot. Oh and for some reason, I am starting a Karate class tonight. I wonder how long I will be able to keep



7. I rarely if ever wear makeup. Hell, I don't even know how to use the little bit of makeup I do have properly. Hopefully this will change soon. I get a free pampering/makeup tutorial/tiral from a Mary Kay rep for free because of where I registered my wedding party for their dresses. Apparently it was some sort of promotion or something. But Im excited to learn how to use makeup for really the first time in my life.


8. I have HUGE self-esteem issues. I very rarely, if ever even, pat myself on the back or congradulate myself etc. I am extremely self depricating. I really don't think much of me at all. I really do have a hard time seeing how much value I have to other people or even to myself.



9. Laundry, I hate laundry. I hate everything about it.


10. When I change into my pjs at night, I take my clothes off and drop them exactly where i stand. very rarely do the clothes make it to the hamper. Pat hates this, im working on it and am getting better about putting the clothes in the laundry. Now just have to do the laundry.... see number 9.



11. I am vehement picker. I pick at everything, scabs, dry flecks of skin, pimples, stray hairs etc. I even pick at pat, who hates it most days but tolerates it on other days. I just can't help it.


12. I Love Love Love M*A*S*H! So much so that my friends got me the entire series, the collectors edition, on DVD for X-Mas. see...

 

13. I have a netflix account, and have had one for many years, about 8 now. and I rarely if ever watch the DVD's that I put in my queue. Not sure why I still have the count. I suppose I'm just not ready to part with it yet. 

14. I can't eat like I used to. I used to be a huge gluttonous pig. As in I could walk into Burger King, order two whoppers, a large fry, a large drink, a dessert and eat it all without batting an eye.  And then move onto the next place, be it starbucks, Baskin Robbins, Carvel, the bakery and sit down and eat some more. these days I can barely eat a jr whopper and finish my drink. And this didnt apply to just fast food, was any food. there is only one exception to this rule.... Sushi.

15. I love sushi. If I could eat it every day I would. But I can't so I don't.But sometimes I try... it never ends well. indigestion and a very empty wallet.

16. I hold grudges, sometimes seemingly forever. I never seem to forget when people wrong me, even in the slightest way. And thus I always second guess that people are out to hurt me be it in a work environment or not. (No i am not talking about complete strangers, I just ignore them)

17. I am beyond petrified of snakes. I have no idea where this fear came from, therefore it is completely irrational. I don't even like watching them on TV. I actually look away and work on thinking of other things. im okay with cartoon snakes though. 

18. I can not eat scrambled eggs without cheese. And in general I like my eggs over easy. 

19. I never, ever, EVER drink soda. I hate the stuff. I just dont understand how people like the stuff. I really don't even like carbonated drinks. Except Beer, love beer.

20. I love my cats as if they were my children. I hold them, cuddle them, talk goo-goo ga-ga noises etc to them. This bothers some people, I don't really care. If I could put them in a stroller and take them for walks, I probably would. But then again, that would certify for certain as the crazy cat lady that lives inside me that i refuse to let out, EVER! 

21. I still have a few christmas items out, albeit not on display around the house. they are kinda packed up and just waiting to get into the attic, just dont feel like putting them away, its like i am still waiting for winter to come so it can really feel like christmas. We havent really had many cold days here in NYC. its been rather warm. yesterday it was about 60 here. 

22. I hate heights, as in being on a ladder or looking down from a very high up spot. but I am okay with flying, go figure.

23. I really don't have a favorite color. I like deep purple, dark reds, and various other jewel tones as well. but I don't really have one as a favorite. For instance, I would have loved to have dark red dresses for my wedding, but that would have looked down right aweful on a couple of my bridesmaids and i didnt want them to look bad to make me look better. Nor did I want to just wear that color because thats what i wanted. So i choose purple, which i do like, but mostly because that is what looked good on everyone.

24. I've been to so many weddings, that I find it seemingly impossible to not "copy" what other people have done at their weddings at some point in time. Im not trying to copy anything from anyone, It just feel like everything has been done already. you know? this is so frustrating. Im trying to purposefully change things that I like so that its not an exact duplicate of anyone elses wedding. 

24. I order the same thing from the deli all the time. Ham swiss tomato mayo on a roll or club roll. I never deviate from this order. I dont know if its love of the sanwich or an OCD like habbitt/tendency.

25. I have a wii, an xbox and a ps3. they never get turned on, yet i keep looking for more games to play on them.

So needless to say Ive got some issues, some quirks and some weirdness in my life that can only be described as "me". 

So now that you know a little bit too much about me, do you do any of these things do you share any of the same quirks?

things that make me go hmmmmm..

A i sit here and go through yet another wedding website, another pinterest board, and more wedding DIY stuff, I keep comming across the same few things. And they make me think/say "what the..." or "why would anyone ever do that" or even "someone actullay did that at their wedding ::Shudders::". Id like to share a few of these things with you. you let me know if im insane/crazy/ultra conservative in my thinking. 1. Boudoir photos/photo sessions: Im sorry, what is the appeal of this. yes so that your kids can some day find these hiding in the back of a closet, so that your extra nosy family members can accidentally come across them. I mean who is he gonna show them to? WILL he show them to anyone. To me photos are meant to be shared and viewed by lots of people in order to share a memory or a date/place in time. TO take photos that no one will ever see other than the photographer, editor, you and significant other, to me seems pointless. And I feel like every website I go to, go thorugh, I feel like this idea is being crammed down my throat. Ugh. Im so sick of seeing it. Im also not into sharing my naked/nearly nakedness with anyone other than me or my significant other. hell most days I try to hide from the mirror!! 2. Messy hair: okay ladies, this is your wedding day. you should look beautiful and polished, not like you just rolled out of bed. UGH! 3. Monograms everywhere: on the napkins, the tablecloths, the candles, the dance floor, on the cake, etc. Granted a monogram here or there is okay, but if you need it all over, its like wow, look at out initials. or damm i really need to remember what my new last name is gonna be. LOL! 4. White/off white bridal party dresses: lets just go with umm no. the only one in white should be the bride. just the way i see it. its a preference and an opinion. 5. trash the dress photo sessions: i don't know about you, but my wedding dress is something I will treasure forever. i don't want to trash it.... ever. why you would want to wear it shred it soak it dirty it in mud etc i will never know. It just baffles me. That's all I got. the same five things over and over and over again. I guess I'm just so tired of seeing them as I do more web research for things I can do myself to save money etc. And also as I look for vendors. Its hard to find a vendor when you don't live near your wedding. we are having a semi-destination wedding. So trying to make an appointment to see someone etc is difficult. I try to cram as much as I can in to short periods of time when I am in that area. which is only once every few months. So the interwebs are my key to all of this. On the upside (cause I need a positive spin after all that negativity) I have done a lot from a distance and have saved a ton of money by doing some stuff myself instead of paying someone to do it for me. Also having such a long lead time until the wedding also helps. Our save the dates are going in the mail in the morning. meant to do it today, but i was glued to my computer working from home all day. so have to make sure i do that tomorrow. One of my bridesmaids was able to spare a couple of hours yesterday and helped me assemble them and stuff them in envelopes with labels and stamps. so that was cool. :-) I love spending time with my bridesmaids. :-)

Hallmark holiday or not... Happy Valentines Day!

Today is what most people call a made up holiday, or a hallmark holiday. Its valentines day. A lot of people poo-poo it saying its nonsense, etc. A lot of single people walk around miserable. It is statistically the one day out of the year when there are the most breakups. So all that being said, Happy Valentines Day!!! I enjoy the day by staying home, instead of attempting to go out for dinner (which is damm near impossible), cooking a dinner for my loving husband-to-be, and all in all just spending time with him this evening. We've had some disasterous valentines days in the past. like pats mother wanting to go to the pallisads mall for dinner at the last minute, and we wandered all over the mall from one resturaunt to another trying to get a table, then they found the craptastic Chinese buffet, which was aweful for me, because I dont like chinese food a whole lot, our table was next to the bathroom and the food was not so good. She's tried this before, and after the mall incident, Going out for Valentines day with her and pats little sister was immedietly put on the Hell-F^King-NEver again list. Weve gone out for Valentines Dinner a couple of times, and it just doesnt work out well. So we just stay home, and I try to make a nice dinner. TOnight we will have grilled prime rib steaks, homemade spinach au-gratin, homemade bread, and a steakhouse salad. Valentines day isn't just a day for couples in love, its a day to celebrate the love you have for everyone in your life.. Friends & Family alike. Treasure those people and let them know you love them today, especially if they don't have anyone to spend the day with! Trust me when I tell you it will make a huge difference to them. To All my friends and family, I love you and wish you a wonderful happy valentines day! I wish you all Love & Friendship, not just today, but every single day from now until forever!

Parenting in the 21st century

It has got to be hard to be a parent. I remember being extremely critical of my parents and fighting them every chance I got when I was a teenager and when I was living at home with them. I didn't make their lives easy. Now, granted, I still don't agree with a lot of the things they did as parents or the methods they chose, but I sure as hell didn't go airing my dirty laundry to the world. We also didn't have things like facebook, twitter, myspace or even blogs! (yeah I know, the dark ages right?)  hahaha. Seriously it wasn't all that long ago that it was really awesome to have your own email address and it was awesome to "dial-up" to AOL & AIM and IM people. Mind you, that was high school. before that, we wrote letters, ya know with a pen/pencil and paper. and we used stamps and went to the post office and...... OKay, I am now severly off topic of where I was going with this.... Lets get back on track.

All that said, parenting, its rough. making decisions that affect your life, attempting to instill morality and common sense into another human being and trying to guide them down the right paths in life so that they dont wide up on drugs and in a ditch somewhere. You want you children to be respecteful of others, to be intelligent and most importantly to be happy. Im not a parent, but I hope to be some day. I really do want children. It just isnt time for that just yet. I hope that I will be some time soon.

This guy, who's video has gone viral, Good grief, I applaud him. He took his daughters nasty rant that she thought was "hidden" on facebook from her family, read it to a camera, and then "disposed" of her computer. This man embodies what parenting is all about, you try your dammdest to bea good parent, to guide your children and teach them whats right and whats wrong, and sometimes it doesnt go according to plan. This young lady, seems to have a large set of balls. to post something so defamatory about her parents on a public forum in what seems like an attempt to make them look like the bad guys. And seemingly shes like every other teenager in the world, lazy. okay, not all of them, but lets say more than a large majority of them.

And considering how this young lady set out to embarasses her parents, I would say that his public responce, is well within reasonable, although I can see how he may have stooped to her level. But in his defense, he at least took a stand and posted it to her Facebook wall to show all her friends that you can't say shit like she did and just get away with it. I mean now, comeon, dad works in IT after all. 

So to this man, I say, Job well done!





What do you think? Was this guy justified in what he did? He certainly has a nice .45 hand gun. HAHA! Did you like his answer to his daughter? Was it appropriate? Would you have said anything else to this girl?

::Insert a witty/fun blog title here...' cause I can't think of one::

Well let's start this off right....... Happy new year blog Readers!!!

Told you it would be a while before I posted, and well, its been over a month. Things around this happy little world of mine have been a little nutty. Just average every day life getting in the way of me having the time (and something) to blog about.

To be honest, Im not sure why I still have this blog, but Im gonna try to stick it out a little bit longer and see if I can't find something to blog about every now and again. All I can do is try, I can't promise that Im going to be a better blogger, but I will try. Fair enough? yes? hope so...

So why don't we start with New Years. We had a great time going out to dinner with friends and ringing in the new year with our best friends, even a bunch that live out of town! So that was awesome!  How was your new Years? did you do anything exciting? I would love to hear what you did and how you rung in the new year!

See that's me on the right, with the smaller smile. Oh and the other gal, one of my bridesmaids, the very awesome Maria!

Now I know this is an aweful grainy photo, but not too bad for a phone pic right?

I am also a terrible blog reader. I'm down to a couple that I read religiously, a few others that I read now and again, but to be honest my "reader" list currently has over 300 blog entries to read. OMG! and that's only a couple of weeks worth. Now granted there is one blog I read that has about 4 posts a day, but still that's a lot of entries to try and read. I'm trying to catch up, but it just feels like a loosing battle some days. Anyone else have these issues? I think I just follow too many blogs. May have to cut back on some, like the ones that post multiple times a day. I think that's a good place to start. yeah, maybe I'll get to that next week? maybe? ah, who knows...

In other random thinking, as the TV is blaring in the background, I am reminded of how much I dislike and truly find utterly disturbing the "Sun Drop" Commercial. Its just so odd, and that guy doing booty drops, so, so , so , SO wrong. It reminds me of some of the horrible commercials from the 80's for some reason. Have you seen it? No. well Here, I am putting it here for you so you can see some of the awefulness and share in some of my pain.



And some other TV related thinking, has anyone else seen the Michael Jackson episode of glee? Loved some of it, really didn't like other parts of it, like when they did the song "Ben". I personally think Artie made a great MJ. And without ruining the end for anyone, I found it cheese-tastic and I'm not really sure I liked it for the episode/overall story line development. Still trying to decide if I like it or not. For me, Glee has unfortunately been kind of forgettable this season so far. I dunno, I guess I am falling out of love with it.


Oh, yeah, we went to Atlantic City last week for a couple of days. We ate, a lot, some of good, some of it average, but none of it great. The hotel was disappointing, and the spa was a wonderful atmosphere, but the massage was only kind of average. So our mid week getaway was more or a mid week let down. I told Pat, next time we go to AC, I don't care how much we save, we were not staying at that hotel again. It was just mediocre experience after mediocre or disappointing experience. I mean, hell, there was mold growing on the ceiling in our room! Gross!


I've been having a lot of wedding related nightmares. Mostly about the few things I haven't done yet, like getting an officiant, a photographer, or someone for hair & makeup. But a few about just sheer and utter disaster, like my dress being died sixteen different colors all at the same time, about people giving birth at my wedding (and I mean like every woman in the room is suddenly pregnant and now delivering in the room), nightmares about other random things as well such as people taking over my wedding, people trying to re-create or re-live their weddings through mine, people fighting with each other (like cage match style), my bridesmaids all of a sudden deciding to wear whatever the hell they want instead of the dress I chose, Bridesmaids refusing to be bridesmaids, etc. I mean some of these nightmares have been intense. I wake up in a cold sweat or crying, or both. And miraculously this all seems to happen when Pat is not home. So all I have to comfort me is the cat, who just doesn't understand why my face is wet, and mostly just tries to run away. And when I tell Pat about these things, he tells me I have a vivid imagination and need to stop watching so much TV about wedding disasters (which is probably true) but a little bit of sympathy would be nice too. Has this ever happened to any of you? I mean the crazy pre-wedding nightmares part.

I've done loads and loads and loads of stuff for the wedding already, and I really do have very little left to do. Here's the list of stuff I need to do...

- get and officiant
- get a photographer
- get our marriage license
- finalize our menu at our tasting
- find a place to have my wedding gown altered/fitted since I bought it in NC while on vacation
- mail out my save the dates & invitations (these are already ordered and being printed)
- Pick our first dance song as well as a few other key songs for the night
- have our wedding program printed after we choose a design for that
- find someone/somewhere to have my hair & makeup done
- get pat a new suit for the wedding
- buy the groomsmans gifts
- plan my bachelorette party (i suppose this should be done by my 'maids and not me, right?)
- buy my shoes and appropriate undergarments for my dress
- find a dress for the rehersal dinner
- some random crafty projects which I hope to share with you at some point

I'm sure there are a few things I am forgetting, but in reality, that's really about all we have left to do. As you can see, there truly isn't much to be done. A few of these things are time sensitive, like the tasting, mailing things out and license. The rest of it can kind of be done whenever, except for finding a place to have my dress altered, I kind of need to get on top of that, like soon.

Having this much done, this early, hell I've still got 296 days to go until our wedding, according to our wedding website anyway. But who's counting? ;-)

Im still looking for a full time job, still in the process or renewing my EMT license, trying to figure out if Im going to work at scout camp again this summer (which I would love to do, but may not be able to if I get a full time job elsewhere), and still trying to motivate myself to get up off my fat ass and go to the gym. I am also still trying to find ways to cross things off of my Life List, which you can read by clicking on the Life list tab at the top of the page. (its almost 11pm, Im tired and too lazy to insert the link, but not too lazy to type it all out. yeah i know, it makes no sense at all)

Are any of you still out there? Does anyone actually read this page anymore???

What have you been up to? I love hearing from you guys. It kind of makes my day a whole lot brighter.

PS- any thoughts on a blog-post title for this entry? I just couldn't come up with one.

PPS- new favorite food combination  Bacon and Ranch. It seems to make every little thing I put it on fucking awesome! (this is probably why I'm still fat and not loosing weight)